A New Learning , Roadmap and Destination

Things always happen because of a reason, which may be predictable or mysterious at times.Change is the only thing that endures.Interest also comes in its ambit. Interest of a human being keeps on changing and as a result of that he makes some decisions to pursue his interest which ideally should neither be cash oriented nor society's pressure driven rather the one which satisfies his inner self and which adds to his degree of happiness. The decision once made, will unfold his future journey but only for as long as he allows it to, and if he is unsatisfied with the outcome of his decision or the culmination is contrary to what he actually wanted it to be then of course he can lead to a new direction by making a new choice which will probably make him happier.He keeps on traveling in one line until and unless he is struck by another interesting thing where again he changes his path.All these keep on happening and this is what according to me constitutes life. Thus this phenomenon is quite explicable but the most important thing in this sequence of events is whether he is enjoying the process of traveling in one direction as long as he does so and when he changes his direction does he enjoy more than what he did earlier both qualitatively and quantitatively ? One can only lead this kind of life is by not getting afraid of being failed because of his repeated decisions which might end up making his life full of misery.Failure is the only thing which will ensure more learning in less time. After failure we will analyze the reasons of failure and will try to improve the shortcomings. So the more somebody fails the more he learns. The most successful person is the one who fails every time but does not give up , does not make the same mistake again and at the end of every failure he knows what not to do and by knowing what not to do after failing million times he actually knows million ways of not doing something and thus actually increasing his chance of hitting his goal. He is million times better than the person who hit the goal in the first instance itself because winning person only knows what is the correct way of doing it without actually knowing all the incorrect ways of doing it which are equally important and it was just a matter of chance that he hit it but there is a good probability that he will not hit the goal in yet another occasion but the person who failed million times in performing his first job learnt million learning and thus in a better position of making the best decision and performing the task. In fact failure is something which must kiss every individual and if somebody hasn't failed in his life then he probably should be declared untouchable in the society instead of casting an individual untouchable by caste based system as is prevalent in India which seems to me entirely ridiculous and full of prejudices because the only way one can escape of failing is by not trying to do anything which makes him a useless person and thus untouchable is justified because of his deeds. In fact there is an organization in the United States which looks in your CV before recruiting in their organization whether you have failed in your life or not and if you haven't then they won't offer a job to you. The reason of this strange behaviour is quite simply this : since you haven't failed in your entire life means you will not know what to do next after failing and since you will not be knowing how to recover after failing , you are not qualified enough for getting into their organization.
Just ponder over this : what the worst can happen to me if I happen to fail in anything I do ? for example in my case, what worse can happen to me if I don't get placed after my B.Tech. ? well, I would love to be in that situation because then I will be forced to study and the amount that I will study say in 1 months will be way more that what I might have studied in my entire B.Tech. Isn't that good ? In fact learning can only happen if I don't know whether I will get placed or not. So if that notion of safe and secure placement is removed then to prove my mettle I will study more and as a result I will learn more and that's what ideally I should be doing. The essence of all these things is simply this : no matter what the traditional way of doing or going about something, until and unless we find the thrill in the process , we must not get thrived by the mere outcome because outcome is something which only lasts for a short time and it is the process that remains with us for quite a long time. The process must give the full satisfaction to us for what we are and what we are doing. We must pose questions to ourselves quite frequently that is this what I love to do or is this the best that I can do for society? After all, everybody earns for themselves. Even a beggar does. What did we do for the larger section of society which is downtrodden and hapless enough not to get a square meal ? Do we owe something to them being the so called "brightest brain" of our time ? What is the fault of a 2 day old poor child who after getting born find itself on the corner of a road where nobody is there to take care of it or what is the fault of a child who is deprived of his education to work at a tea store just because it's mother is sick and old enough of not being able to feed herself and her children ? OR should we just stop listening and answering to such nonsense stuff and get away with all these because our family is safe and roaming happily.

Well, the effect of all this led me to quit my Amazon internship and gave me a entirely different direction where my path is destined to be studying something which I haven't studied quite rigorously for quite some time.
I am going for civil services. I like the process of getting into it, not merely the outcome. What if in my first and second and may be third attempt of getting into civil services I fail miserably all the time ? well, my response to that will be , since failure is a norm and not an exception and at least I have tried to do something which I liked and to do something good for society. This will put me in a better position than a lot others who merely work for themselves. It will give me much needed satisfaction than I would probably get after working for a corporate giant merely for the sake of some cash which will neither be of any use to me nor to society.